My little monster is a big girl.

So I am tickled to death that Leah is now standing for decent amounts of time by herself. She will not do it of course if I am encouraging such behavior, but the moment I turn, she stands there. I cannot believe how quickly she is growing. Soon my little baby will be walking around. It is a good thing I bought her supportive shoes a week ago when she lost one of her old ones in the mall.
My only worry is that she starts walking in Ohio. I hope she waits until she gets back home to daddy. He has gotten to see her do everything, and I really, really do not want him to miss her first steps. I am going to try my hardest while we are there to get her to wait.
Anyways, I wanted to share my joy with you all. I am going to catch some much needed sleep before cleaning tomorrow. Good night.

Trying to be nice

Lately, I have been trying to work on the whole being nice thing because anyone who really knows me knows that I do not come by that easily. I tend to be very opinionated and hurtful when it comes to people in general and how they treat other. It has been so hard these past two weeks, and it seems like everyone is trying their hardest to get me to break. Believe me, these people do not want to see me break. If it does break, the person it breaks on might want to run because there is a lot of built up frustration inside.
This whole being nice thing has made me realize how much I dislike people in general. They always stick their noses where it really does not need to be. I am so tired of people critiquing and pointing at all my flaws when they need to look at themselves for a good long minute. I bet they would not like what they see; in fact, the people that usually critique and point at others flaws are usually not happy in their own lives. Maybe, I just need to keep telling myself that.

Friends...I need a few new ones

I am so aggravated. I am sick of being the friend that is always calling and making plans with everyone else. I am sick of being that friend no one else has to worry about. I am not talking about all my friends just the two I call my best friends...sad I know. I am sick of excuses. You both gave me hell whenever I had shit I had to do, but I would end up putting off school work or staying up later 'cause you would whine and whine. Now what are you doing, since you have the luxury of being miles away, putting me off. I find out one friend was real close a couple weeks ago. She was so close she could have came and just said hi. She, however, decided not to. She told me that she would be busy this whole month...yes this whole month.
I am sick of the "friends" I have...not all of you but quite a few of you. I have another who cancels with me. She just had surgery fine...whatever. You went on a date last night though then call me today to cancel a playdate our daughters had cause you are to sore...you weren't to sore to go out last night or the night before that. Screw both of you. I am done!

Friends and Family

So my family is coming down from Ohio in less than one month, and I could not be more excited. This will be the first time that my mom, stepdad, youngest sister, and brother will meet Leah. She will be eight months the 21st, and she is crawling and holding onto things walking. I am sad they missed the real baby period, but I am so glad they get to see her as a little person. I really miss them and cannot wait to be around them all again.
So our little family is doing much better lately. Aaron and I have learned to cope with Leah's tantrums much better, and she is having much less. Lately, it is getting a little bad because her damn teeth, but at the same time, I am glad to be getting it all over with. Aaron and I won't be having anymore children until I am ceritified and have taught at least a year. We then and only then will decide when to actually start trying, but we have one thing we must do before, take little Leah to Disney World. She loves Mickey. She eyes stayed glued whenever he is on. I love the snot out of her. She looks so much like her daddy which makes her ten times more beautiful. Those two are my world.
Onto friends, I miss and love you guys. I am sorry all of you live far away, but I will make it out to see you all sometime. I really need to take a trip to Baton Rouge and come see you Tia. Kristina good luck with your surgery, and I will try my best to make it up there next week. Melissa if you need help with your wedding or just want to talk about it give me a jingle, and I will call you next time I come to Hammond so we can hang. I love you guys. Thanks for being there for me through thick and then.
Anyways, I am off to check on the little one. It is nap time, and I want to see if she is asleep yet. Talk to some of you soon.

Blah Mood

Sometimes I get in these really funky moods. I cannot explain why, I just do. I want to be left alone, and everyone just to avoid me. I want to hide away in my little shell and think...about nothing in particular. I know weird, but I am weird.
It started off a good day. Hubby and I got the yard straight bright and early. We went and picked up the monster...that is nickname because she use to be, and we went to the mall were we walked around until she woke up. We had lunch, and then we went to hang out at the park. It was a gorgeous day to go sit, but we all started to turn pink. We then went to grocery store, and when we got home is when I just started to blah. Ya.
I do not know. Maybe, I will figure it out. I decide that I needed to start reading since I will be teaching English within the next couple years. I am going to SLU in the fall to start my certification. I will only be taking one English class the whole year and a half that I am there, so I thought it best if I just keep reading on my own and study the authors. I bought The Awakening by Kate Chopin. My counselor at SLU had suggested it, so I said why not. Anyways, I am going to run off now and try to work this mood out.

It has been such a beautiful week.
I have been taking Leah to a park everyday, and she has had such a blast. She tries to, of course, eat everything in site. She loves it, and I love when she gets to enjoy herself. Today, because it is Sunday, the parks are probably crazy, so we are going to work in the yard. I am going to work in the yard, anyways, while Leah plays and crawls around.
Leah is growing so fast. She now has four complete teeth. Thank God! They finally all broke skin so if she wakes up in the middle of the night it is only once. I just wish the girls hair would grow. We are so use to seeing her without hair that it is going to look so funny when it finally does come in.
Well, my family will be coming in a month. I am so excited. My mom has been unable to meet Leah, and it is such a shame because she will be eight and a half months when she sees her for the first time. I am happy that Leah will get to meet my mom before she goes through the real bad attachment phase that everyone is telling me about.
Anyways, I just felt like writing. Going to go do some stuff before the little monster wakes up and we start out day.

No more living in the past.

So I decided I will not proceed to write about the past because it is there for a reason. So I have been evaluating my life a lot lately. I do this every now and then as a checks and balance short of thing, and I have realized that I need fix some things.
I have been focused a little too much on myself. I have forgotten about old friends that I loved and still love, and I have been a little selfish when it comes to family matters.
I am turning 24 this year. I am still young, but it is about time to stop with the bullshit. My life isn't about me anymore. It is about my family and the friends who have stuck by me through thick and then.
So why come to this now because I am healing. I am coming out of the big black cloud of depression and "poor pitiful me's". I wanted to say I am sorry to a close friend of mine who I have not seen in four long years. I love you girl, and I am sorry we are just now seeing each other again. Sorry, I never called or driven down before. I hope that we can stay friends for a lifetime. To my family even though Leah you cannot read this and Aaron you are not on enough, sorry I have lost my cool and put you all through hell and back. Thank you for loving me unconditionally and putting up the nasty temper and impatience I have had. Good bye to that nasty temper. Because of you, I have hurt people who mean everything to me. I have let you control my life and my health. I have let you control my actions, but no longer will you do this. Good bye random clubs and drinking. I am no longer single, and I am a mommy. This should not be my scene. When I am free for a night, I should be doing "married" and "mommy" things like going out to eat, movies, shopping, etc. I am out of college, and I do not need to possibly put myself in a situation that could permanently scar my family. Good bye to hate. As much as I have tried to deny you, I have let your ugly head creep in the depths of my mind and control my feelings. I refuse to be sad, depressed, angry, etc. I want to be and will be happy.
I am turning 24 this year, and it is about time I started acting like it.

Explanation and Greetings

Hi, so I guess I will start this blog by introducing my self and my title. My name Elizabeth, and I am twenty three years old. I am a stay at home mommy to a beautiful seven month old girl named Leah, but I do plan to get my certification in secondary education this fall. I have been married to my wonderful hubby Aaron for a little over a year now, and he is the foundation of my sanity.
Life has big one big roller coaster for me. I never planned to stay here in Louisiana. I always planned to runaway to somewhere, where the mountains met the ocean; but life has a funny way of turning things around. It tends to take your plan A and make it, its plan B.
I met my wonderful husband while I was previously engaged...oooo, ya I know. I never once cheated on the guy. I know you are thinking," Ya, right." We got distant. He was more into computers than he was me. We never did anything, and I started to lose who I was. I wanted to travel, do things. He was quite content at home on the computer. He was a good guy, but I didn't get the attention I needed. I needed someone who would encourage me to go out there and spread my wings and kick life in the ass. Aaron did that for me. He loved my independent spirit. He loved that I wanted to be my own person. Needless to say, I noticed our friendship blossoming quickly and broke it off the relationship with my ex.
Aaron and I quickly became more than friends and within two months were engaged. I know crazy right, but sometimes when you meet the one it doesn't matter. Screw what everyone else thinks. Do what makes you happy.
Aaron and I were engaged a year before we got married, and a month before we got married, we found out we were pregnant with Miss Leah. Who by the way is now awake, and I must attend to her. I will hopefully finish within the next couple days. Everyone take care of yourselves and God bless!