Inspired

I have been feeling this sort of flame stirring lately, and I have been curious of what it is. Today, the flame turned into a fire; and I realized my passion for expression is yearning to come back out and play.
Since I graduated from LSU, I have neglected simple enjoyments that I had. I stopped writing and painting. I loved doing both, and they helped to free up trapped emotion. Today, I sat down and wrote a poem. After revising it several times, I submitted it to a journal. I need to start doing that more often. I need exposure.
I also decided that I am going to venture into handmade goods. I am inspired by a local artisan to do so, and I am going to make children's clothing, burp clothes, diaper bags, etc. First, I need to buy a sewing machine and other supplies like fabric and thread. I am so excited, and if it does not work out, I will know how to make my own things.
Anyways, I thought I would share my new discovery because it is important to me. I hope you all have a good night, and I hope you never give up on what makes you happy. Night Night

Doctor Appt

So I told you all that Leah and I were passing something back and forth. Well, I am over it except a cough, but poor Leah has a double ear infection... :-(. Doctor gave us meds, but he said that he believes hers may be allergies and not a cold. I now have to give her claritin everyday for two weeks, and if that works, he will be putting her on allergy meds for awhile. I feel so bad. I keep my house clean, but I feel like I am not catching something. Hopefully between the prescription and the claritin this will all disappear fast.

Good news is, is that she is seeming to be well on her way. She is only nineteen pounds at nine months, but she is 28 and a half inches tall. She is going to be tall like the men on both sides. Well, I am off. Catch you guys later.

What are you afraid of?

Last night my father and I had an interesting conversation, and at one point, he claimed that he had me pin pointed. I chuckled and asked him how so. He claimed that I was not afraid of anything but fear itself. I was confused by this until he proceeded to explain, "If someone broke in your house right now, you would not hesitate to attack them. You are a strong person, but if someone, broke in her house and walked out before returning you would crumble into a million pieces."
I thought awhile about this, and I realized that fear is a lack of control. My fear is fear, lacking control. If you really think about it, everyone (well, most people) has this in common. We are not really afraid of spiders or heights. We are afraid of not being able to control what happens if the spider bites us or we fall off that building.
I know some of you probably think this is just a random "common sense" type of rambling, but I really do believe it is one of the wisest things I have heard thus far. Anyways, I must go before the little one wakes up. Have a wonderful day.

Change is here

So I believe the trip to Ohio did some good. I have the almost awkward sense of calmness. Usually, I am stressing over stuff I cannot change; but I just do not care anymore. I do not believe this lack of care is a bad thing, but I have grown so accustom to caring about menial things that it just feels awkward.
Right now, I feel my main focus is making my family happy. They are the reason I get up in the morning and work so very hard to help make there dreams come true. I have also realized they have done the same for me.
If it was not for Aaron, I would not be able to stay home and play with my little angel or have the beautiful home we have. He works day in and day out to make sure we never have to go without. He is the man I prayed to marry, and I thank God everyday for bringing such a loving and giving man into my life.
If is was not for our beautiful gift Leah, I do not feel my heart would be a complete piece. It sounds corny, but man! I do love waking up to those big blue eyes peeping over that crib. She is the reason I strive so hard to help make our happy little life together.
God has blessed me so incredibly much, and I believe if I just let him handle all the petty stuff, I will be okay. No one and nothing but God and my family can have my happiness anymore. I have one life, and it is about time I truly start enjoying it.

Back from Ohio

So long time no see. I am happy to be back home with the hubby, but I cannot say that I don't miss my family or the cold weather. We had a wonderful trip, and Leah grew so much during that time. She now has six teeth and is standing at times without holding onto anything. She is also taking steps with help of course. The last thing she started doing is saying "dada", so that was a nice treat for Aaron when we got back.
I really miss being able to see my family whenever, and I miss not sweating my butt off during the summer. I am, however, happy that my family is not going through the economic crisis that is occurring up there. Every time the news came on, it would talk about how this or that city is laying off more policemen or firefighters. It also talked about all the plants that were getting shut down.
It makes me sad to know so many people are losing there homes because both the mother and father lost their jobs, and people are even having a hard time finding part time jobs up there. They in high demand.
The trip to Ohio was bitter sweet. If the economy was not in the shit hole it is, I would not mind moving up there. I love the weather, and it is so beautiful where my parents live. I hope you all took care of yourselves. Have a good one.

H...iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

"Hi," that was Leah's first word. She has always mumbled out ma and da, but usually only when she is fussing. Yesterday, however, I said hi to her; and she responded with a, "H....iiiiiiii." I was so incredibly tickled. She is still doing it too; of course, she says it better sometimes than others. I am proud of her either way. I am so happy in four hours my parents will be here to meet her for the very first time!
It has been over a year since I have seen them, and I believe one year is long enough. I just hope it does not rain the entire time they are here. It looks nasty today, but no plans today but to let them rest. Well, I am off. If you don't hear from me for a bit, you know why. Take care and see ya later.

Sunday cannot come quick enough

I wish it were Sunday already. I wish my parents were here with me, but I have some last minute cleaning to do before they get here. I got a lot done, but I do not want to dust or "really" clean the floors until it is closer. I sweep every day, but I want to wait to do the whole nine yards because the dogs will just drag in more grime.
Speaking of dogs, their appointments went well. We never realized how protective Kindle is over Leah until the receptionist when to touch Leah, and Kindle let out the massive bark at her. I was impressed. Kindle also went from a 40lb puppy to a 60lb 11 mo. old. I guess seeing her every day, I did not realize how big she is getting. She is not fat by any means. She is just a big dog.
Tomorrow, I will be dusting and cleaning our ferret and rabbit cages. Bah! I really don't want to clean the cages because my allergies are freaking out. Aaron usually does them, but he has been working a lot so he can have a couple days off when my parents are here. Anyways, I am going to run. Have a good night everyone.

What do they think about?

I decided to write a post tonight since I will be running errands in the morning. Leah and I had another productive and fun day. I cleaned bathrooms and windows today while she played in her playroom with her toys. After the bathrooms were cleaned, I planned on going to the mall for a walk; but a nasty storm came through. We ended up cuddled up in the living room with the dogs because everyone was scared of the thunder and lightening. After things calmed down, Leah and I played on the patio; and I ended up getting some decent pictures of her and Austin.
While I was taking pictures of her, I watched and studied her...weird,yes. I was fascinated how everything she touched looked new and she studied every little detail. It made me realize how much we all take for granted, a blade of grass; the smell of air after it rains; the warmth from the sun as it gently caresses our face. I admired her in her innocence, and I became in love with her all over again. She is my angel and reminder from God to stop every now and then and appreciate the little things. I love her so incredibly much and the beauty she brings into my life. I am off until tomorrow night. Good night and take care.

April showers bring May flowers, but man, do I hate those showers.

Leah and I had a great day yesterday. I vacuumed my car while she played near by with a toy and tried to venture away from me every now and then. We also got to play in the garden. Well, she played "pull the petals off flowers" while I played "pull the nasty, horrible weeds". We then took a field trip to Petsmart where she got to look at all the pretty fish. The child loves watching fish, and Aaron and I plan on getting Mrs. Jean's tank one day for her. We will probably do that whenever Leah and I get back from Ohio. Anyways, we were pretty productive yesterday.
I have to try to get the house clean over the next couple days because my parents are coming. It is not horrible, but it could be dusted and the floors gone over. I just hate that it is going to rain yet again. Every time I think about cleaning, it rains. When it rains, the dogs drag the dirt and grime right back into the house. Bah.
Well, I am done for today. By the way, I am going to start adding a picture whenever I can. One of my blog mommies does this, and I think it is a wonderful idea. She is so talented. Mine are definitely not up to par, but I will post them anyway. Have a wonderful day everybody.

OMG! What am I going to do?!

So I have not been feeling good lately, and my hormones have been crazy. I had a light period. This happened when I was pregnant with Leah, so I got really nervous and decided to take a test. OMG! It says I am pregnant! What am I going to do? I am suppose to be going back to school!
















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